Pain, Pain go away!

I have been home sick yesterday and today, not really sick more like crippled. I hurt my back and muscles across my rib cage, it hurts to breath and move. I am a little better today. I am trying to sit up and do some things so I can go back to work. I am starting to knit the cupcake hat above. I made one recently and a girl at work wants one, so I am making her one. I have managed to knit a couple of rows. Along with not feeling well I am a little sad.(probably partial drug induced) Today is my ex-husband's birthday, he is fifty. I am still amazed that after all this time he still refuses to communicate with me, to the point that he would rather not see his children than to send me an email to set up visitation. He has only seen Kendall and Lacey for 3 hours or less a month for the past 10 months. Ifeel for them and I am helpless. It is very hard when the most important job in the world to you is your children and you can't keep them from hurting or make their father spend time with them. I am glad that he is finally spending time with Lindsay Ann and Britta. I have come a long long way, but I still miss the time when we were all together.